Well it has been an up and down weekend for both myself and my family, but again I will find a way to stay totally positive and push through it. I am not really sure where to begin so I will start around Thursday-Friday ish. So Thursday night Jacqueline came over and as always I love seeing her, and when she comes over to spend the night I just sleep better. I think its because I know she is safe and she is right next to me and that just makes me feel so much better. Friday went alright, Jac and I went to lunch and walked around Broadripple. She left and I studied some ME 450 for my test. Later that day I went to hang out near Purdue w/ Ronnie, Garret, Evan, and Spencer. We left Indy to meet Areef and Brian for dinner up there. Areef wrote a letter to my parents about me which made their year I bet. It was great to see him and thank him. Areef I no you are reading this and you mean a ton to me and always have. Your a great person and a very caring individual. You have so much ahead of you it is unbelievable.
However not all was good news on Friday. I got an email from the people in charge of my scholarship telling me I was to be put on probation. If I do not meet certain requirements in the Fall semester I would not be able to renew my scholarship in the spring semester. This is almost comical as my spring semester would be my last. This does not come as a surprise while this last semester and summer I have definitely shown the improvement and have gotten my shit together, my sophomore year GPA hurt me to much. However again I am not going to dwell on the past I am going to take this as a challenge. I'm not sure if I have ever been able to get a 3.75 in my HS or College Career but now would be the time to do so. I am Academic Chair for Phi Kappa Psi and I am going to show all of the people on probation what it really means to care and work for your grades.
Today I got up and went to church with Jacqueline. I love going to church especially with her. I just get so much comfort when I feel close to God. I have tried hard in the last year to improve my relationship with God and Jesus. I understand I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot of talents that I need to use to better myself and others around me. I feel God made me the way I am for a reason. I try to help others as much as possible and improve other peoples lives because I am ok with who I am. So it is time to give as much back to others as possible.
Tomorrow will be tough, and it will be long. I have Chem 106 from 8am-10am and I will then be studying my ME 450 till 4pm when we have that test. The only thing that keeps me going and studying is knowing that every minute I study is a minute that someone else has given up or stopped or is doing something else. So every minute I study is a minute I become more prepared then everyone else. This is the way I have to make this a competition because if I can bring out my competitive nature. There is no stopping me.
However not all was good news on Friday. I got an email from the people in charge of my scholarship telling me I was to be put on probation. If I do not meet certain requirements in the Fall semester I would not be able to renew my scholarship in the spring semester. This is almost comical as my spring semester would be my last. This does not come as a surprise while this last semester and summer I have definitely shown the improvement and have gotten my shit together, my sophomore year GPA hurt me to much. However again I am not going to dwell on the past I am going to take this as a challenge. I'm not sure if I have ever been able to get a 3.75 in my HS or College Career but now would be the time to do so. I am Academic Chair for Phi Kappa Psi and I am going to show all of the people on probation what it really means to care and work for your grades.
Saturday me and my love planned on paddle boats on the canal however the weather stopped that thought. So I studied some more in the morning for ME450 and waited for Jacqueline to come over. We cooked dinner (which is always fun) and it really just made me want to get a house together. I'm caught in a very difficult stage in my life. I do not want to grow up to fast as for the first time I actually feel as if I'm becoming an adult, and leaving my childhood behind. However, with Jacqueline I'm so excited to grow up. I have matured so much over the last year that I myself have even began to notice. I do not enjoy going to these parties anymore because it just seems there is so much ignorance and immaturity that I can not handle it. I love hanging out w/ a few people and putting down some beers. Ryan's party was perfect in every way and he put a lot of work into it. I've just grown past the rowdy kid parties. It is weird knowing that in one year I will be out in the job force for real. A real job doing real shit with a real paycheck (hopefully). I again got to sleep w/ Jacqueline which makes me super happy.
Today I got up and went to church with Jacqueline. I love going to church especially with her. I just get so much comfort when I feel close to God. I have tried hard in the last year to improve my relationship with God and Jesus. I understand I have a lot to be thankful for and a lot of talents that I need to use to better myself and others around me. I feel God made me the way I am for a reason. I try to help others as much as possible and improve other peoples lives because I am ok with who I am. So it is time to give as much back to others as possible.
Tomorrow will be tough, and it will be long. I have Chem 106 from 8am-10am and I will then be studying my ME 450 till 4pm when we have that test. The only thing that keeps me going and studying is knowing that every minute I study is a minute that someone else has given up or stopped or is doing something else. So every minute I study is a minute I become more prepared then everyone else. This is the way I have to make this a competition because if I can bring out my competitive nature. There is no stopping me.
Keep up the good work bro!
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